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My xanga is so crappi i dont noe wat to do with it anymore...I hanvnt updated this thing in years either...time juss flies by i guess.  And i had this great entry i was gonna post too, a couple of weeks ago, and i was all excited and i was almost done typin. BUT teauntae came over like at 12:45 in tha mornin and needed to use my computer, so evrything got erased. So here i am almost 3 weeks later and i dont noe wat to say. Lately alot of "stuff" has been goin on some good some bad. I wish i could juss solve everyones problems but i got ish too. Things were goin great between me and Dontell. We hung out the whole weeken and things were perfect, i wish i could stayed like for 4ever.Then he juss switched up and starts actin like were "just friends". I think it had alot to do with the fight tho. yeah let me feel ya in on that. Basically some drama is goin down wit TeTe and Nick, and they broke up, and he starts bein a bitch. So Dontell, Stan, Lance ( Teauntaes cuzzins) go over to Nicks and this huge fight breakes out. And Nicks dad starts pullin out guns and his brother has a bat, and they juss go too far wit it. So im at work the day after this happens and Nick is tellin me all this, hes like braggin to my face, and i was soo pissed off at him. 1st im still mad at wat he did/ said to TeTe, 2nd he already noes that me and Dontell are together, 3rd he comes up to me like were still friends and has the nerve to be like "i hope all this doesnt effect our friendship" I juss cant stand him anymore, i have honestly lost all respect for him.

So since the fight Dontell thinks hes hella hard, and he can do anything he wants. Hes from Mi and all his old habits are startin to come bak. Which im hating, becuz now he wants to be disrespectful to his family, smokin, and jus doin shady things. And he was like im gonna change i dont wanna be like that anymore, thats why i cam out here to California" but im not believein it tho. So i dint hear from him ina a couple of days, then he calls me wen im at work. But u really couldnt talk so i juss sent him a message wen i got off. And he sends somethin back, like "what do u think of my cuzzin lance....would u consider goin out with him?" That juss made me real mad too, so im like wat do you mean, like i was so confused, and i juss wanted to be like wat about me and you what happened to us bein together? but i dint say that becuz somethin wasnt seemin rite. So he stops sendin me messages and juss calls, and then it wasnt even him. It was Lance and hes all that wasnt Dontell, hes sleep, but why cant mee and you be together. And i was even more mad by then, cuz its like im seein your fuckin cuzin thats why! But im nice and dint say that, but we talked and i felt soo bad, cuz he was soundin so sad. Then i dint noe wat to do, cuz the next night i was supposed to be goin out to this big fancy dinner and party in Jack London Square, and the both of them were gonna be there. And TeTe had invited me and she was like get dressed up, and were gonna pik you up, and were gonna go to my dads night club, and its gonna be so much fun! And the whole week i was excited, but juss ended up stayin at home.

I guess Dontell had found out about the whole Lance thing, and we stopped talkin again and i dint see him for about 1 1/2 weeks. And it was wierd cuzi was used to seein him like everyday. So the last few weeks went by real slow for me. Then like moday he finally called me, and he was like how you been, havnt got to see you in a while and my families tryna keep me from seein u cuz they noe were soo much in love. Then i wanted to be like aww i missed you, but at the same time i wanted to be like fuck you. well thats not how i wanna end this but i g2g bb2morrow

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so i need to stop bein so lazi, and update this thing more often.  Lets see rite now theres so much to talk about.  Lets go back to last week.  Saturday, was plannin to go see the Grudge wit my best friend and her cuzzin who she was gonna hook me up wit.  So that nite we were gonna ride out to Oakland and pick him up from the airport cuz he's movin out here from Virgina.  But we dint go cuz there was this fat accident in vallejo and all the power went out.  So then my friend from work had called me and we were posed to go to this party. She was tryna invite half of JCP lol and it wasnt even her party. So like 11:30 my  friend calls me and she was like her cuzzins in town now, did i still wana go to the party? Yall noe me i aint gonna pass down no party! So we get there and its hella packed and hella dark. But it was crakin tho! Then peeple start yellin out wat cities/ crew the reppin they werent bout to fight or nothin tho, juss playin around.  Then about 10 minutes later the cops shut us down. And they try to open up the front door, but these stupid niggas push the door back out and knock over the cop. Which was a mistake cuz then they started pullin out tazor guns and poppin folks and it was hella crazy/ funni. So after that we bounced!!! evryone went to iN-&-oUt for the after party. Later around 1am we ended up back at my house and we juss hung outside talkin.

SunDay-HallowEEn- We hung out again, this time invited Richard. Me/ Dontell & te/richard went on this "double date". But Te kept gettin mad at him and he endedup bonces later. First we all went to eat at chilli's then went to see the Grudge, but rich left cuz he sayd he already seen it. So she kinna ended up bein the 3rd wheel and i dont think she was likin that too much. Afterwards went to go eat again at Te's job.  then came back to town and went to see Rich.

Wensday- was JessiCa's 17th Birthday- that gurl....shes so fuckin crazi!  Afterschool Me, her, Te, and her sis went to the photo place cuz Te was takin some more senior pix. And jessica was like "i hate my pictures, they chose an ugly one for the yearbook" so i seen her pix and they all came out cute, but she was really trippen. She was like " i look FAT and i have bean bag tits" soon as she sayd that the old lady looked all alarmed lol! i think they were very glad wen we left.  Later went to the mall, called Helen and some other folks, but helen was the only one who picked up they fone. So we were at the mall and decided to eat at Red Robins cuz jess wanted them to sing happy-b-day to her. And she wanted to act crazy, and since she works there she could get away with it. And that girl is an embarassment lol. shes hecka wierd but ina fun way. OmG then she tried to introduce us to this guy she kinna likes, and she was askin for him all nite, then he finally came over to our table. She was like "he's purto rican and black and he has nice hair" so i was like Oooooh let me meet him. OMG this DUDE WAS SO FUCKIN UGLY! his head was hella big, he had hecka acne, his teeth were messed up, and he looked like an old man. i dont noe wat the hell she was thinkin, she better stick to Sean.  But i got to see Aaron while we were there, and helens like " so whos that" so i told her the truth i was like thats my future husband .  After we left there Jess wanted to take pix in one of those lil pic booths. and her fat head was takin up all the camera space, so in half the pix all u see is her forehead.  Then after that we said good bye to Helen and went up to Vallejo to get "my boo" as jessica stated. im not gonna lie i was happi to see him tho.  then finally got home and talked to my buddi Jason on the fone for a lil while. Dint have any hw that nite so i was happi.

other than that nothin really happened durin the week. Friday nite helped work the consession stand at the football game. It was me and Yesenia and like 10 freshmen lol. I met this boy Chan and he was so funni, he was actin like we were like the bestest friends and i had jus met him. I was posed to leave at 6:30 but everytime i was like ok bye im leavin now, he was like no u have to stay, ur not a good friend if you leave. I went to go see BUnny b4 i left, cuz she's my new cool friend, and he got mad at me. So i ended up stayin till like 9:00. I was havin fun so i dint mind. Later went home.Got ready to go to the movies, another double date. But this time Te did not bring Rich. She invited MIKe which was kinna a problem for me. Cuz he was her ex, and i hella liked him b4 they started goin out, and then they broke up and i still liked him, and then we kinna started talkin, but we never really made anything official cuz i couldnt date my best friends ex, thats juss wrong. Then he moved back to Philly and last night was the 1st time id seen him since then. So we get to the movies and somehow i was ended up sittin between him and Dontell, which i wasnt liken too much , so i switched seats wit Dontell. But that movie was hella borin, we saw Fri. Nite Lights, cuz the guys dint wanna see the incredables . i was all startin to fall asleep, then dude behind me actually did and he was snorin and then his cell was goin off too, but he dint pik up cuz he was Knocked out sleep. So Dontell was like, lets go see the incredables...pleaz, but Teauntae was like no, juss stay here, well go 2morrow....but did we...NO haha j/k

Today tho, i had to work. And i had seen so many peeple i hadnt seen in years. I saw my girl Clancye and i was sO hAppY!!! I was bout to cry, she was like "No dont cry, cuz then ima start to cry too" So we sittin there all tearyeyed and im like you wanna go see Jeanne. So we go find Jeanne, and Clancye was like" i told yall i was comin back my Senior Year!" and that gurl was serious too. so we was talkin fora bit, then she went to Macy's to try to find Bez. I cant believe its been almost 4 years since i seen her, we bout to go kik it soon.  Then later i saw Kianni, Tasha, Jasmine, Alynia, (Tre ) and so many other peeple, it was wierd i was not expectin none of that.

so now im at home, hella bored. ttyl

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damm i realized its been almost a month since i last updated. Where has all the time went to? i sware i had hella ish to share too, but i guess its all a lil late now. So i guess i'll talk bout somethin a lil more recent. This past friday was our homecoming game. For the last 2 weeks juss been dancin my azz off, tryna prepare for the half time skit. But i guess all the hard work and time has paid off cuz we came in first place! HeLL Yea go SENIORS...class of 05! Our theme was the 80's. evryone <well almost everyone> looked so cute in they lil fits. It was fun, i wish it wasnt over so soon. But too bad we lost our actual football game. that sucked, but it wasnt no suprize.

Today i went to Fremont and visited the California School for the Deaf. It was actually fun at sometimes cuz i got to learn a lil signlanguage. The peeple there were hella nice too, and some you wouldnt even believe were deaf. BUt i felt a lil bad for them, like wen we too breaks everyone was singin and lissenin to the music. But there they were off to the side not bein able to enjoy it. I couldnt handle not bein able to communicate wit other folks, or even hearin my favorite song. it kinna makes me not wanna take somethin like that for granted. But im hella glad i went cuz now i really wanna learn sign language all the way.

afterwards was supposed to go kik it with some peeples down at Emriville/ Oakland, but it was too stormy over there. So i juss stayed near town and did some shoppin. 2morrow goin back to work, havnt been in hella long its seems like, 4 days off ina row.

Oh yea i mite be movin...no more Cali for me. My cuzzo and i are bouncin. but not for a lil while.